First to Tenth

Assalamualaikum wbt.

First : Alhamdulillah syukurlillah Thank you Allah for all of divine interventions and helps in every steps of my life.

Second : I apologize for those awaiting my banal piece of writing but so far ended up here gain nothing.

Third : I hope I can finish my simple entry this time, again, because I often typed something but it ended incomplete. I lost my passion with all of sudden. Staring at the blank page with a distance look in my eyes while the rest is still unwritten.

Warning! : Read the remaining with a big huge smile.

Forth : Exam will be on Monday and I feel like my systems are incompetent and almost burst out. The tiny part of me thought I'd did everything I should BUT the huge part yet say NO. Oh! I'm in dire trouble. I only have another one day to cover everything uncovered.

Fifth : We've been conditioned to not make mistakes but really we can't live that way. We break the rules we made ourselves. Thats human's nature. Capable of error. Never infallibe. Well, the great spirits have always encountered violent opposition from mediocre minds.

Sixth : Oh don't mind if I behaved strangely. Because, I'm totally okay. Really do. Its just probably because of the Pharmacology/ies that makes everyone acts real funny in an imperative way especially me.

Seventh : I got non-productive cough which serves useless purpose and it euphemismly makes me feel comfortable. I dont know if I am the one who actually take less care of myself or the fluctuating weather do that.

Eighth : The goal of of this entry is not to eliminate the misery but to keep the misery to minimum. Releasing the inhibitions and reconditioning stimulations. I dont know if I'm doing right. I just hope I am.

Ninth : I apologize again for those who dropped by here expecting something that can fulfill your empty soul or adding your general informations or sharpen you acquisitions BUT finally just find out this ludicrous typical piece of writing. I'm wasting your time. I should whack myself for that. Well, some men go through a forest but see no firewood.

Tenth : I got this through my mass reading of unknown's blog. My tears pooled that I can barely cry because my heart is firm, full of sins and guilts. Aku hamba hina. Ya Allah, lembutkanlah hati hamba-Mu ini.

I felt something that I cannot certainly describe when I read those. A je ne sais quoi feeling.

قَالَ النَّبِيُّ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ يَقُولُ اللَّهُ تَعَالَى
أَنَا عِنْدَ ظَنِّ عَبْدِي بِي وَأَنَا مَعَهُ إِذَا ذَكَرَنِي فَإِنْ ذَكَرَنِي
فِي نَفْسِهِ ذَكَرْتُهُ فِي نَفْسِي وَإِنْ ذَكَرَنِي فِي مَلَإٍ ذَكَرْتُهُ فِي
مَلَإٍ خَيْرٍ مِنْهُمْ وَإِنْ تَقَرَّبَ إِلَيَّ بِشِبْرٍ تَقَرَّبْتُ إِلَيْهِ
ذِرَاعًا وَإِنْ تَقَرَّبَ إِلَيَّ ذِرَاعًا تَقَرَّبْتُ إِلَيْهِ بَاعًا وَإِنْ
أَتَانِي يَمْشِي أَتَيْتُهُ هَرْوَلَةً.

Maksudnya:“Allah berfirman: Aku sentiasa bersama apa yang disangkakan oleh
hamba-Ku kepada-Ku. Aku bersamanya apabila dia mengingati-Ku. Jika dia berzikir
dalam dirinya Aku akan mengingatinya seperti itu juga. Jika dia berzikir di
khalayak ramai, Aku akan mengingatinya di khalayak yang lebih baik dari itu.
Jika dia mendekati-Ku sejengkal, Aku akan mendekatinya sehasta. Jika dia
mendekati-Ku sehasta, Aku akan mendekatinya sedepa. Jika dia datang kepada-Ku
berjalan, Aku akan datang kepadanya dengan berlari-lari anak.”
(Al-Bukhari)

Indeed, Allah always here and there for me. He is the True Lover. Nothing can change His love. He always gives me best even if I'd commit mistakes and did wrong. Ya Allah, ampuni hamba-Mu yang celaka ini. Ampunilah.



Colleagues : I hope every each of us may perform a greater good reputation for this third year examination and together start our more exciting and stimulating fourth year this September. Hooreeyy!! (I'm inspiring everyone okay). Again, Hooreeyyy!!